Life Happens..

"Why are they celebrating broken things, I don't want a world with broken things", so says John Mayer in his song 'Someone Speak For Me'.

This words ring so true in my heart. I hate goodbyes, break ups, conflicts..I hate it when people I love or cherish leave. I hate it even more when they act like they had a tea party with the devil's evil twin, who in turn poisoned them against me (that's just the only way to explain their weird behaviour. Just in case you're wondering, I'm as saintly as they come; of course it's never my fault! )

Guess what? Life happens. People leave. Love ends. Friends walk away. All the time.

I've taken to reading more and more. In fact, these past three weekends I've been indoors reading up on few books namely: Frank Mc Court's 'Tis and Helen Fielding's 'Bridget Jones Diary'. I guess I just wanted to remember what it's like to be in my own skin whilst enjoying my company. That said, there are a few people whom I genuinely miss... and I can't tell them this face to face because they;

1.  might not believe me
2. it might be too soon..
3. the separation might be a good thing, in the long run.

Still, I don't want a world with broken things....

THE DAY...

A busy Wednesday no?

POISON FOR ONE

You don't know forgiveness until you're lying on the floor with both your hands holding on to your insides & you are sure you're about to die.

Your chest thumps like giant drums vast heavy sounds, tribal chants. For a moment there it feels like the ants are in your ears tearing away at your heart,

then you hush...

A fighting spirit rises in your throat from a divine source whispering, you cannot be slave to pain..slave to the chains that somehow

made their way from the past locked your arms and refused

to let you breathe the only way you will live through

the night is if you just

FORGIVE.